I have such romantic notions of how life should be. In my world, everyone behaves the way they should; a student studies for his course just because he chose to enrols in it; strangers are polite to each other; people return phone calls and reply to emails; a tour guides works without the expectation of a tip; and so does a waiter (waitress).....etc etc. But my grandeur of romance gets shattered every single time!!! But sadly I don't learn from it. I go on to my next broken romance.
When am I going to realize that reality is so far from idealism? People don't behave like they are supposed to and sometimes they just don't know how to behave, and so things will never have the same outcome as I want them to be. I will just keep getting disappointed at reality. Instead, I should start getting amused....."Oh look it happened again!! - haha!" But there is no haha when things don't go the way they are supposed to. It is depressing, causes anger, resentment and shakes my faith in humanity and sometimes common sense.
I just wrote my blog on "rules" - well, it is certainly true that most people don't know (or don't care to know) much about the rules of nature, of how things are supposed to be. They make up their rules as they live life. Their personal background, culture and experience makes them create their rules, which they follow and believe to be right. So of course if I have expectation of ideal behaviour, then it is my problem, not theirs. Obviously! (Can you see me rolling my eyes?). Or maybe I have created my own set of rules by which I behave....and expect everyone else to abide by them....I will not know unless someone tells me.
So at this time my problem is incurable (the problem with die hard romantics). Knowing all of the above, I still have expectations of ideal behaviour. I want to have faith in humanity that it can behave the way it is supposed to. I want to believe (I sound like Mulder in X-files). Human being is the only species which has the ability to think and reason but it does not excercise it. I would like humans to start behaving like the elevated species they are.
Thank goodness I do have some people in my life who make me believe.....thank you!!